In the brilliantly written, Call Me By Your Name André Aciman gifts Oliver, one of his protagonists, with the book’s second most famous quotable, the nearly quakerly simple, “later”! Oliver uses this to dismiss himself from conversations he’d rather not become involved in, to say goodbye, and it’s even used by Aciman’s other protagonist Elio in order to joke about the nonchalance with which his family’s summer guest will take leave of them all without having ever invested the time and energy in getting to know anyone. Little does he know that what appears to him as flippant dismissiveness, is to become an emotionally formative aspect of his entire romantic life. Sometimes very simple, nearly forgettable things, can prove to be far more impacting than we might have ever imagined. That is just the case with this blog now that it is time to say goodbye; I am ending this blog here — a year after it started.
My original goal with this blog was to write for only one year. I like to achieve my goals and find the best way is to keep them practically attainable. The idea back then was to write as a practice in writing-discipline, and of course, to see how many people might be interested in what I have to say. I am still amazed that anyone read at all! Knowing that people from around the world took the time to actually read something that I’ve written isn’t something that I take for granted. There were even those who left comments, and reading those comments and responding was one of the most fulfilling aspects of this whole experience. I thank you all for your thoughtful and thought-provoking words. There is a function here on WordPress whereby one can see a world map and those countries where viewers have taken time to read what’s been written are colored. Each week, I have been genuinely amazed to find new and distant countries colored in; Poland, India, South Korea, Egypt, Saudi Arabia, Canada, Paraguay, etc. This coloring-in of the world has been another of the most enjoyable parts of this experiment.
There were certainly weeks whereby I had no idea what I would write, and then there were others whereby the words jumped onto the page with nearly no preparation at all. I find that is pretty much always true of my writing. There are bits of pure inspiration, but often surrounded by lots of plodding through. I’ve come to understand that this plodding through is a fundamental part of my writing process…just writing to get to the best of what I can do. Every writer has a different process and mine includes long periods of doubt and second-guessing. Although that might sound pretty bleak, I assure you it isn’t. I genuinely feel like it will all come together…later. It usually does.
I am not one for sentimentality, in fact, I loathe it. Therefore, in order to avoid this final entry becoming a syrup of self-praise or rose-tinted memories, I will close with only a few points that I’ve learned in doing this:
- There is magic everywhere,
- Words are magic (I already knew this one of course, but on some level I think I had forgotten how purely true it is), and
- A year is far less time than you think.
So, Dear Reader, thank you again for participating as thoroughly as you have in this project of mine. It has been a year, like any other, with ups and downs and I’ve hopefully been able to share my take on some of the things that may have been on your mind. Or, if there are points that I brought up that you hadn’t thought of, I sincerely appreciate your opening your minds enough to continue reading. I wish you hours and hours of interesting, entertaining, and meaningful reading without the Doctor.